Tonight, I feel inspired by Aida Azlin. She's doing the same thing currently, that I shall be doing this year, which are to talk about reflections on life and to cover as many aspects of life as possible. Such enlightenment, I feel. The way she elaborates a topic on certain things, both light and heavy thoughts and opinions. I hope to have that same drive and istiqomah this year, to write, to free, and to search myself.
I realise my posts are generally discussing on being stagnant and stuck. I do feel that way all the time right now. Feeling the past life is better than the present. My dreams then felt like they became lost along the way. At this moment, I do feel sense of direction, but I lack drive. The drive to push myself forward and make my life's pure contentment. Is it bad to feel that I have not figure things out? Am I too late for it? Does that make me a failure?
In some ways, I do regret things that I decided for myself in the past. Wished I could've done that, done this better, or different. Reality is, wishing
What I could do NOW is to have a goal. Or goals, short and long ones. Sequence of shorts are better, I suppose. Long term goals end up being mere chuck of dust in the end, based on my experience.
Short term goal #1 is to lose weight. I aim to be 60 kgs by the end of next year. I am on track, but a bit slow right now. Progress is a progress, and wins over stagnant any time of the day.
Short term goal #2 is to be more active in campus activities. Coincide with the first one mentioned above, learn to set priorities straight. It will be a good practice for me to improve myself as a whole.
That's all I could think of to write tonight. No more bullshit. Aim for self betterment, awaken and alive. And living!
Bismillah, kids.
Mye.
